Depression Comes From the Belly

Depression is something that I have been battling for about 4 years now. For about the first year I had no idea what was going on with me. It was during this time that I gained most of my weight, approximately 100 pounds!! This was like nothing I had ever experienced before… I couldn’t get out of bed, I wasn’t productive at work, I went to bed by 7:30 at night and my house and finances were a disaster.

After that first year I went to see my doctor about the problems I had been experiencing. I was diagnosed with chronic depression at that point and we began the search for a medication that would help me. Another thing that she recommended for me was talk therapy. She also told me at this time that I needed to try to lose some weight and it would help my depression. This was something that was going through my head every minute of every day. I knew that I needed to lose weight, but it seemed like an impossible task at that point. I couldn’t get out of bed, or cook myself dinner. How was I going to be able to exercise and cook a healthy meal.

I began taking an antidepressant right away and tried my hardest to lose weight, even though it seemed like failure after failure in my attempts. I also started seeing a therapist. She created a safe environment for me to let my feelings out. She also encouraged me to do things for myself that would make me feel better, things like short walks and socializing. The entire time that I saw her, though, she kept saying, “there must be a traumatic experience in your past that is making you feel depressed.”

There wasn’t. I had a great childhood, good friends, I was always happy and laughing. I could not come up with any reason why I was depressed. This also made the depression very frustrating, because I couldn’t explain it to people around me. If you have never suffered from depression there is no way you could know how debilitating it can be. I stopped seeing the therapist after about 4 months.

The next 2 and a half years went by and I was doing ok, but basically coasting. I no longer cried every day and was maintaining my life with just medication. There was just one problem… I was still not losing weight. I wasn’t gaining it at a high rate of speed like before, but it certainly wasn’t getting any better. Also, I didn’t want to spend the rest of my life on medication. It seemed like my only option though and this was as good as it was going to get. I accepted this.

This last January I finally hit a point in my health where I had to lose weight. My health was circling the drain. I went to see a nutritional healing consultant because I was beginning to feel terrible all the time. Right away she took me off of gluten. This is the most amazing thing that had ever happened to me!! I started dropping weight like crazy and I felt great. I have been gluten free for 7 months now, I’ve lost 50 pounds and I am happy to say that I have been antidepressant free for 6 weeks!!

I now realize that my antidepressant was keeping me from experiencing all feeling all together. I am much happier and energetic!! I still cry on occasion, but I know why I am crying now, there is always an explainable reason. I also cry tears of joy, which has been unheard of for the last four years. I had no idea that an antidepressant would eliminate all feelings. There is research all over the internet about how gluten effects our moods. I really wish that someone would have told me this 4 years ago. I’m not saying that I didn’t need to take an antidepressant to get me headed back in the right direction, but I feel like this rough road would have been a lot shorter had I known how much what I was putting into my belly was effecting my health.

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